IX

I HAD many reasons to suppose that this book was intended for me. Many signs pointed to the fact that it was destined for me as a special duty, a personal mission and lieutenancy. I realised, when it came down to it, that no one else considered himself to be its owner. Even Rudolf, who had only served it. It was, as a matter of fact, something alien to him. He was like a reluctant and lazy serf with the obligation of a corvée. At times jealousy flooded his heart with bitterness. He internally mutinied against his role as the steward of a treasure which no longer belonged to him. He gazed enviously at the reflection of faraway worlds wandering across my face in a quiet scale of colours. Only mirrored in my features could he perceive the remote gleam of those pages, in which his soul took no part.